Tuesday, October 09, 2007

Weird feelings

This post is "apropos of nothing," to quote the great Stephen Crane in his wonderful short story "The Open Boat," but have you ever been overcome by a sense of doom I can't really explain it too well, but I was just seized with this strong sense that something somewhere is just not right. The feeling is so strong that it's manifesting itself physically: my scalp feels very hot and prickly for no reason. I'm inside, in an air-conditioned building, so there's no excuse for this weird hotness (unless I'm having a hot flash -- I mean, I am 43 now).

Has this ever happened to you? Maybe I should call Kat. And my mother.

It's really strange, and I just wanted to see whether this happened to anyone else. Pardon the interruption in my otherwise birdly blog.


FranIAm said...

Dear dguzman, or is it ok for me to refer to you as Delia?

I don't know if it is the same thing or not, but I have had similar feelings.

They were, ahem- age related. Remember, I have a few years on you.

Sometimes, and I don't mean to get all metaphysical on you, but I also think these are invitations from nature to look inward.

What inner birds call out to you to be sought, seen, heard?

I don't know, just my thought based on my own experience.

Peace sister!

(since you moderate comments you can read this and choose not to post!)

KGMom said...

Sorry to tell you this, but it could be menopause. I would get shaky around 5 p.m.--not a heat flash, just shaking as though my blood sugar was down in the basement.
Hope you are all right.
Do let us know.

dguzman said...

Fran and KGmom: Perhaps that's what it is--age-related.

After work, I went to my calculus class. On the drive there, the weird feeling and the scalp thing went away.

Maybe it is more metaphysical than physical. There are definitely always "inner birds" to be seen and pondered, and I've been too busy of late to really pay much attention to myself.

If it is menopause, I say "bring it on!" I'm ready to be done with that whole business!

Thanks for your thoughts!

pissed off patricia said...

Sounds like a bit of an anxiety attack. I have them at the drop of a hat.

I refuse to take meds to get through them and instead try to occupy my mind with something simple and easy for a little while. Often times I will come to the computer and play a few games of solitare. Most times that works for me.

I did the menopause thing in my late 30's and early 40's. I was a total bitch there for a while but once it was over it was smooth sailing.

dguzman said...

Hi PoP: You know, I used to have anxiety attacks all the time back when I was teaching, but it's been over ten years since I left that profession. Now that you mention it, however, I think that's what it was! Right down to the scalp thing! It's just been so freakin' long since I felt that happen! Mystery solved! (and no menopause, dangit) It must've been the calculus thing--last week I didn't go to class on Tuesday (sick) and my prof cancelled class on Thursday, so I was a little freaked out about missing a week.

FranIAm said...

Just checking back to see you how you are. Sending good thoughts.

Watch those inner birds my sweet friend!

dguzman said...

Fran, you're such an angel. And of course you can call me Delia. Or whatever!

Dr. Monkey Von Monkerstein said...

How you feeling today Dguz? I'm worried about ya my friend.

dguzman said...

Feeling lots better, thanks, Dr. M!